I am just sad. I know that I have two wonderful kids, but as much as I try to stay positive, my sadness overwhelms me. Maybe it is because Kelli is out of town and I am lonely... I don't know. I just hate when people say, "Look at all you have," or "Just snap out of it." It just goes to show that you don't know what is going on in people's minds. Is that person who seems to have a great life really up all night so depressed that they can't even cry? I guess the grass is always greener on the other side until you actually walk over there and realize that you are allergic to grass. Which I am. It doesn't help the situation. Anyway, I will just keep getting up in the morning and do what I need to do to get throughout the day. I am starting to look really old. I think it is because I forgot how to smile.